colector: [JournalWriting] Re: Just an entry really but you know me it can get a little long

Congratulations Kat!

Super to be married in wonderful Hawaii! and one more to go in Paris
too!

Enjoy and have a wonderful time..

Cheers
Sharmila

--- In JournalWriting@yahoogroups.com, "Katiya" <madisonlayne36@...>
wrote:
>
> I am sitting here with my flowering fruit tea and its really good.
> When I ordered tea a few months back it was one of the flavours I
> bought in a sample pack. I remember the smell from when I worked
at
> the bookstore a few years back and I wanted to make sure I liked
the
> taste before committing to buying a larger package down the road...
>
> Basically I have been reading the messages for a few weeks and I
was
> down (mentally) during that time and I was writing fairly dark
> entries so I had to not put that on others in a sense but I get a
> little non functioning while I am this way. I kinda let housework
and
> other things fall on the wayside for a little bit. Adain was like
WTF
> is wrong with you basically. He thought I was acting way to dark
for
> him and I wasn't talking much. He read the journal we keep
together
> and he and I talked and I had let him know from December-March I
feel
> like I get a little strange here since we get so little warmth and
> good sunlight. It was more than that though. I had looked back
> through my old journals and see if I could find a coorelation
between
> this time of year and why I get way too moody and I figured it all
> out. (I'd rather keep the reason personal but it was more than a
> serious thing.)
>
> However, Adain and I took our trip but we didn't go to Louisiana
or
> Florida. We went to Hawaii so we could be alone away from anyone
we
> knew. Mainly Maui but we spent a few days on Oahu. I lived on Oahu
> for a few yrs so it was nice to go down memory road. It was good
> times. So when we were on Maui the second to the last night we
were
> there we got married. It was a surprise for me really. He had set
the
> whole thing up. (Good thing I was in an agreeable mood.) So we
> haven't told our families we were married yet. We just kinda want
to
> be married alone for awhile before introducing our families into
it.
> Plus we want to have all our family together in Paris when we get
> remarried there in July. It was lovely to have a Hawaiian
ceremony.
> It was quite old fashioned though since one of us said obey lol.
It
> was meant as a joke really. Our ceremony in Paris will be much
more
> formal. I'm so not formal so I enjoyed the informality of the
> Hawaiian ceremony. We were married on February 29th so how was
that
> for oddity :)
>
> We talked/dealt with the subject my tendency to get more than
moody
> when we first got together and he knew what he was in for
sometimes.
> He really only asked me have I ever been suicidal or thought about
> it? I have never been suicidal or thought about doing myself in
no.
> Otherwise I would of already done it in my view. He has known me
long
> enough to know that I am pretty paradoxical and moody. I have had
> therapy at points in life and have learned to deal with events in
my
> life and the past. Its why Aidan and I have the type of
relationship
> we do. Its not totally conventional no but it works for us. It
might
> scare even me sometimes (<---not for the physical) but we've
never
> done anything dangerous or something that would injure either one
of
> us. We basically have a conventional relationship about 70% of the
> time but we both get bored at points so we travel and get into
things
> 20% of the time and the other 10% we do what we do so we stay in
> balance.
>
> So basically I am feeling way better now since we took the trip
and I
> figured out why I was way out of sorts and dealt with it. There
isn't
> much diffrence between the way we were and the way we are now that
we
> are married. I realized he needed to have that piece of paper and
> commitment ceremony. I didn't feel that need and I still don't in
a
> sense but I realized it may be a problem down the road. I figured
I
> could live with the marriage part otherwise I wouldn't of accepted
> when he asked me to marry him over Christmas. Basically a few days
> back I signed my married name for the first time and when I was
> called in at the doctor's office the receptionist said it and
Aidan
> was there and he looked like he was quite pleased with himself
about
> it. (I was always thinking that those Europeans were open about
such
> things as relationships but I learned Aidan is the type who would
be
> considered an old fashioned fellow when it comes to marriage and
> relations for the most part. His mother schooled me on the things
I
> questioned about him when his family was here.)
>
> Well it looks like everyone here is doing well and we keep on
adding
> new members every so often. Wondering whats up with Gloria though.
> She has been gone a long while. I miss her posts. I'm back at work
> and I am feeling very good. I think I would of been fine even if
we
> didn't get married but it was nice to take the trip to get some
sun
> and warmth. I'm the type who doesn't like a lot of fuss about
things
> in life like holidays, birthdays, heck even being married lol.
Aidan
> says I am the most low key person he has ever met in his lifetime.
>
> I think they should stop playing with dalight savings. It used to
get
> dark about 630-645pm anyhow. Now its dark around 730-745pm and it
> doesn't get light out until about 730am here in the mornings--sigh.
>
> Kat
>