colector: [JournalWriting] Walks/Sharmila

Thanks for the congrats. Basically lately I have just been getting
used to the mental part of being married. I don't even mind the
considering him when I make decisions or do things because I have had
that mindset since we started living together. When we need days off
from one another once or twice a year then we let each other know we
are taking a personal day lol. It helps. Others should try that.
Yes we have been living together/committed to one another for a while
now. If I think about it rationally its not that much diffrent than
before we went through the ceremony. It'll be nice to be married
alone for a few months before we do the deed in front of everyone.
Since we were married on the 29th we figure we can celebrate that one
every 4 years. We'll celebrate the July 29th ceremony every year. :)

Yeah the dark period passed and I figured out why it happened every
year about this time. Funny how you never connect the dots sometimes
unless you actively search it out. I figured it out and I discussed
it w/ the SO. He was blown away to say the least since he didn't
think I would of ever done what I did. I felt like I released it
after I talked about it with him and that is what I needed to do to
put it away in the past. Plus a few of my issues in life have had a
little to do with the so very wrong church I was raised in. I didn't
think those things were affecting me but I was feeling guilty about
what I had done a long while back. Yeah some religions can
really do a number on you if you let it. If we get a chance to have
our child we'll let him/her know about religion but let the kid make
their own decision and not guilt them about it one way or the other.
Definitely not force them to go to church services or the like.
We are both agnostic about organised religion.

Now that we are already married I don't really feel the need (again)
to go through the ceremony but I'll be a good sport about it. Plus I
am sure my family will enjoy seeing us "legalised" according to both
sets of parents since they are around the same age and think the same
way about marriage. His parents wanted him to marry before they pass
on to glory as they like to say. We have decided to keep the Hawaii
thing a lifelong secret so we have our little secret :)

Kat